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*bigshow

*bigshow

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my future

Posted 1 month ago

well, ive doing some thinking, and a bit of talking with malaka.......and I want to know, should I leave the furry community, or become less involved in it? Seems like nothing good is coming of it anymore, and out of the whole thing, ive only got 10 or 15 friends in the whole fandom......tops. Its just slowly gone downhill. No one wishes to just chat or to be there to make new friends, they are all here to just kiss up to you and ask for free art, and you never hear from them until they want something or when they want you to comment on something. I keep feeling like people just use me because Im a artist and i draw for free, and only to have someone tell me *mostly malaka* that i should have not done that or that I should have blocked them or never talked to them because of how they treat me or how they are to others. I know Ive told alot of people I was either going to drop FA or just post art for my friends...but I dont feel as though thats going to be enough, it feels like i just need to leave it alone. I just dont know what to do really

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10 comments

  1. *myr

    Comment from *Myr, 1 month ago (#124384)

    Looks like you're feeling like what I realized months if not a year ago by now. This fandom seems to take more from you than what it ever gives back. You should do whatever it is you feel like doing. People will take advantage of you at any chance they can in any way they can.
  2. *lambertdalion

    Comment from *lambertdalion, 1 month ago (#123811)

    it's upto you but i wouldn't take the fandom to seriously i did and it only lead me to depression. but i've reevaluated it and i'm much happier for it now.
    Live life everyday as if it was your last day for you never know when the zombies will arrive!
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123891)

      well, this is just one of those "where am I going" moments, brought on by things going on in life. I really dont take the fandom seriously at all...its just some of the others that I thing about which makes me looks at it differently. If there were less of them, it would make more of us alot happier or somewhat. I do it for my friends mostly, and also, to show the world I got what it takes to dance with the big dogs, lol. even though i suck at some stuff, and that has slowly changed to just doing it for friends that ive gotten close to on FA. I kinda looked at it, and still thinks that if not stop drawing, just leave FA and or just be inactive all the time. Eh something will pop up and I think i'll get over it
      1. *lambertdalion

        Comment from *lambertdalion, 1 month ago (#126342)

        okay well then i would say do what makes you the happiest.
        Live life everyday as if it was your last day for you never know when the zombies will arrive!
  3. *verm

    Comment from *Verm, 1 month ago (#123244)

    The blunt truth is that you are probably taking the fandom far more seriously than you should, many do. I might not be an artist, but I enjoy the many things that the fandom does have. but the one thing that I haven't done is let it be a reason for living freely. Some seem to act as if getting attention from anyone and everyone in the fandom is a necessity instead of taking to it for fun. I always looked to it as being nothing more than a fun way to involve myself with others that have a similar interest in said things involving the fandom and not.

    I consider Furry like a videogame: You involve yourself because you personally enjoy it, not for idolizing, fame or fortune. If you do it too much, it becomes an obsession and/or can lead to boredom, thus losing the Fun Factor that was originally the intent of its presence. It's just like comparing a person that draws porn to a person that does not; they do their choice preference because it's fun for them, but they don't draw the same thing all the time. Just like Videogames, everyone in the fandom seeks variety so nothing becomes repetitive to the point of feeling that it's not worth doing anymore. And like a videogame, there are difficulties that you can and can't handle. In those cases, you just have to try harder and learn from previous experiences to better your performance.

    You should be asking yourself if you are enjoying what you are doing. If not, then you should be asking yourself what you can do to make it more enjoyable. The honest fact of the matter is that you can't always depend on others to give you the answer, only small tidbits of advice. It will still come down to you needing to think for yourself about how you feel on the topic at hand and what you plan to do in order to have a change that can be considered acceptable. From the way I see it, you have 2 choices: Run away from it, or learn from it. Running just means you'll make the same mistakes endlessly without gaining any progress, while learning would still give you faults, but you would be able to see it and make it better.

    I guess the point I'm making is that you should take to Furry as you take to videogames: Do it for fun, not to live.
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123898)

      I do do it for fun, lol. but you know, some furs are like those very difficult bosses that you have to beat in a special way or like those levels on the verylast stage that seem to be seemingly impossible to get off, so you either quit, restart, toss the controller at the TV and curse it for all its worth, or leav it alone until you come back to finish it a week or a month later. lol. So yeah, sometimes I do treat it as one....took me about a year or so to comeback and finish 2 of my old pics I did that I never got finish with because it was out my league at the time.
      1. *verm

        Comment from *Verm, 1 month ago (#124354)

        I'm a person that will take on the boss endlessly until I succeed in defeating it and getting my victory. Though things never go your way, you should never just let up on it. Try taking the time to understand your thoughts on the matter and see about finding a way to approach it from another perspective that may give light to a much better outcome.

        I'll be honest, I love to lose in games. Winning can be easy and quickly become repetitive to the point that you can't gain any satisfaction because it's never a challenge. At least with losing, you can learn from your faults and perfect them. I always have a ball losing, seeming as if it's the best thing in the world. I usually end up finding out things from my loses and using it to my advantage to better my chances towards victory. You will never be able to appease everyone, so you should not try to do such. Instead, do what you do and enjoy it to the best of your ability. Just remember that comments are nothing more than open-minded opinions, not facts...so don't let them be a reason for you to change what you do, moreso and most definitely towards the negatives. If you are to change anything, do it for your own personal benefit and not to an individual that does not approve. Always be willing to accept all forms of comments, be it good or bad. Have a neutral approach about everything and let your thoughts be the final action after considering all that will take effect.
  4. *minnieshoof

    Comment from *Minnie Shoof, 1 month ago (#122312)

    Ain't gonna tell you how to lead ya life, hun, but I will try to talk to you more when I get time.

    Cause if people get free art, I wanna know where the line is. XD Kidding! Kidding!
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123904)

      *points to you're trunk* There! thats where the line is, lol! But seriously, your nowhere near it. you dont come out of the blue wonder and then kiss my ass for RPs and free art.....hell, I seen one guy on FA that does nothing but that, you never see his own art half the time anymore.
  5. *cmdra

    Comment from *cmdra, 1 month ago (#122153)

    Its personally up to you IMHO. Personally it'd be a waste of talent to let this kinda thing get to you. Cause drawing is a big part of you. Why waste it cause people act like that. Just set your limits on people who you draw for. 10 - 15 friends max is a lot personally. I myself don't even have that many close people. You're lucky yourself to even have gotten that many true friends if that many of them even are. Either wise yeh know just draw for yourself and be you for who you are and ignore the rest. Thats how it has to go sometimes. I've felt annoyed by these kinds of people myself. And really don't have to do the free stuff. If they're going ot ruin it they ruin it and you draw to entertain people, and draw for your own love of drawing. Personally I'd stay if I were you.
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123913)

      well, these were the few that ive managed to truly got to know from FA without all the RPing and free art blabbing. *ive done one or two, but they were one my own accord* theyve helped me out with alot of stuff, and ive tried to do the same. But yeah...i think i was in a sour moment when i wrote this....just bent all out of shape thats all. im back now
  6. *amadeus

    Comment from *amadeus, 1 month ago (#121870)

    I agree, furs and people alike always are making grabby hands and begging for free art, I have several friends who have left FA already because of it.

    I enjoy shooting the shit with other artists, but it seems that our pats on the back and snickers at in-jokes and such are being bogged down in a Quagmire (giggity giggity) of furs looking for a free this or a little that.

    I don't mind spreading my talent around (what little of it I have) but using my talent for non-selfish purposes takes time and money from me.

    I welcome art trades and commissions, but whenever someone marches into my inbox and says "draw this plz" I have to break down and say no.

    Bigshow, I hope you find some sort of nexus, a center of peace in this fandom that can provide you the peace of mind and the creative input you deserve.
    Go visit my friends! Pretty please? *makes sad kitten eyes with quivering lip*
    halcy0nuniformvixenitsatraplonlonman
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123925)

      yeah, I thought of that too. just waisting away and not doing anything. and after someone told me that I wouldnt make it doing commissions *if you want Id tell you in a PM* i kinda just felt like I need to get a real job *but I still managed to get a few commissions anyways, and I ned to finish them they getting older* But thats all irrelevant. Im gonna continue to draw furry art and or anime *which I need to pick back up* but Im just gonna limit how i interact with the community. gotta draw the line for some people though.
      1. *amadeus

        Comment from *amadeus, 1 month ago (#124677)

        I would commission you but i don't really see any themes in your art that stand out to me yet.

        *peeks through your gallery again*
        Go visit my friends! Pretty please? *makes sad kitten eyes with quivering lip*
        halcy0nuniformvixenitsatraplonlonman
        1. *bigshow

          Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#125036)

          thats ok, im not that good of an artist anyways. i dont have much to show nor that much veriety going on right now though
  7. *siriusdogg

    Comment from *siriusdogg, 1 month ago (#121617)

    I don't really know you very well, so I really can't say much and I haven't been too involved with the fandom, just showing my art on different sites. Never been to a convention at all. I would say just be less involved with it rather just leaving it completely.
    I know how you feel about people mooching you for free art, heck I had the same problem at the Boys and Girls Club I went to. Some of the teens I know asked me for art and it got pretty annoying. I only have one fur friend in RL, so it is a little lonely. It bugs (sometimes embarrasses) me when I have to explain to people why I draw the anthros that I draw.

    but maybe it's me being young and naive.
    You just do whatever floats your boat, or whatever makes life's waves easier to bear.


    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#121677)

      well, when folks asked me that in school., i just got tired and told them, hell yeah I like drawing this thing with huge ass tits and went on by my business

      Now, its just how the furry community on the places I use to be have just went down hill soo fast, and people only beleaving in what they want to other than the truth and or not taking sides with things if they arnt too sure on what it is they are standing on *which ive done a few times but now I only try to do it when its for a good cause* i hear so much junk about off he is doing this for the site, and ohh that guy is talking about my FA and all that.....and non of them even knows what the real truth is. And some of these folks that ask for art just to gain popularity *they know who they are, but I think they arnt on fap due to the lacking of ego strokage* they are the ones thats getting to me...some do it for free art, and in turn be annouying....and others want you to check out something of they're, and rate it, but then when it comes to your art, you get nothing from them.....even if you didnt ask them, you gt no answer out of them at all. And malaka, myr, and a few others have woke me up to the fact that i either have to run them off, or just limit my time there. Some tell me to leave, some say stay....and some just have mixed feelings. most of the ones ive talked to have said that they want me to stay....but i dunno. i might do it for my friends and block nearly all the fanboys, ratings aint squat to when I know i truely do it for my friends and not the others......and id happy block them all if it came to it. really. But FA is down, the FA fanboys are here making theyre presence felt, causing drama. and the ones that wish for FAP to return to what it was.....are just sitting in the outfield looking at whats going on and shaking there heads
      ohh well, I guess here with frineds is better than nothing
      1. *siriusdogg

        Comment from *siriusdogg, 1 month ago (#121745)

        oh hehe XD. The most asked question I've gotten from people is "Can you Dragonball Z?" I told them no but I would some Naruto for ya XD. no one's ever really asked me for my fur drawing ^^;

        I'm still a little wet behind the ears about the fandom even though I've been in for some time. I've seen that drama on FA and DA quite a bit though, it's pretty annoying to me and I don't really see any point in posting a journal about someone dissing your art or page. I like llamas but not drama llamas.

        Now, people who ask for art just to be popular, I can totally agree with you! Hehe in 8th grade, I remember drawing a very good pic of Hyper Knuckles and then I gave it someone like an young gullible ass. Unfortunately, the bastard RE-inked it with permanent marker (making the lines really dark and messing up the pic entirely) and then showing it to rest of the class. The guy even scratched off my signature!

        whoops that's stealing but same
        okay okay, went on a little tangent back to topic
        Yeah, the furry community on some sites have broken down fast. I remember when I used to love meeting new furs on DA but now...gone. FA was my new fur home but the community sometimes acts like a dysfunctional family. You got some good people, but a lot drama that you have to go through to see those good people.

        sorry if I'm not making sense, gabbing too much or retelling you your words. ^^;
        1. *bigshow

          Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#123917)

          i have only a selective group of people on DA that i can talk to, that mainly it though. Ive had some others that come on to say WTF or some gay shit like that, but I run em off with a stick. lol. I mainly just post finished works and railfan pics there. and nothing more
          1. *siriusdogg

            Comment from *siriusdogg, 1 month ago (#123938)

            Hehe I see. I sort of chatty with a bunch of people, but then again they don't tick me off which is good. I usually post my finished work as well, but I also post my sketches (mostly the ones that actually look good and hark really hard on).
  8. *insanesmeargle

    Comment from *insanesmeargle, 1 month ago (#121598)

    Well, irl people are like that too. In the past almost everyone in real life around me only wanted to be friend of mine because some material stuff that I have or some talent that I have. I say this because is not only online, there are a lot of selfish people out there.

    My advice is that you stick around in the fandom, being active or passive, and that you make art for the ones who really deserves that, not for the ones that wants some free art. Life is not having things for free, people have to make effort to get what they want, and they should know that.
  9. *eradragon

    Comment from *eradragon, 1 month ago (#121326)

    Eh. Don't have to leave, but then you don't have to be involved in it as much as you have been. Just stick around to those you know as friends.
  10. *satosuke

    Comment from *satosuke, 1 month ago (#121314)

    Hey, I feel the same way, to an extent. My actual time investment in the fandom is very minimal, and I don't actually know anyone else in the fandom in real life. Heck, I could just say screw it and not do anything with the fandom anymore anytime I wanted. And I hope you don't consider me one of those art moochers. I hate people like that. D8

    And I'd talk to ya if you want someone to talk to; I just always wait for someone to approach me with the offer normally. I'm kinda reclusive like that.
    1. *bigshow

      Comment from *bigshow, 1 month ago (#121690)

      well, im kinda like the same way, but i just get all rany at times like with FA and the Ads......posted one journal...people kinda responded....posted anothe on some other stuf....no one answered. Guess they thought i wa just bitching about nothing. but i tend to speak my mind alot, regardless, just to make my point. or try to anyways......but rambling aside....I do just site back and watch.....and not talk unless someone talks to me

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