Furry Art Pile

hi everyone, sorry i have not been around as of late, i've had just a lot of stuff on my mind.
Been kinda busy working on overdue stuff and trying to color a few tings at once
including the avatard comic with kkitty23 and Kitty-lynn and not to mention commissions owed
and its just been overall hecktic.
My brother has a new hearing at a new school, i hope to God it goes well cuz he needs to get out this house
and be in another enviorment...(for those whom don't know, my brother is a 23 year old with sever autisim)
hes been quite difficult to control lately and it really bothers me that my mom wont even try to consider other options for him
i worry about my brother a lot and i wish i could do so much more for everybody....
i almost walked out on my mother out of pure anger...i felt horrible about it cuz i wasn't thinking straight at all
im really am just sick of fighting with her everyday, its just really getting redundant and i hate fighting with her.
*sighs*

Also, i really feel that there's something wrong with me and i know i'm allowing it to happen.
i feel the way that i do cuz i feel sorry for myself all the time, i'm not taking care of myself,
i allowed myself to get in to a hole of depression when i should be stronger than that.
I really just have to take the courage to face things that i can change for the better and be a better person.
even knowing that it can be hard, even if theres day that i just hate myself, i just wanna grow and be sucessfull for once.

i know this all kinda random and im sorry.....sometimes i just hate keeping stuff bottled up. ya'know
thank you for reading.